Day after day, 20 minutes at a time

 

A relationship, built on my failure.

A personality, built on daily minimal effort for myself

 

The relationship between my true self,

and the Me I try and project to the world,

IS my relationship with God.

 

As long as I have breath, He will be faithful.

As long as I have sin, I will not.

 

I reward myself with indulgence

I punish myself with indulgence

I mourn and lament with indulgence

 

I waste away into nothing

my heart dry, cracked, and dusty

 

and so big it scares me.

 

Loving myself is hard.

Loving myself enough to show it is even harder

IDK…