It is not a cosmetic defect nor is it naturally broken. It was taken by someone and left in poor condition, then simply returned back to me damaged. My heart is weak but my heart is wise. The only organ I need in order to keep me alive but I'd be better off dead than to have to give my heart a reminder to continue beating. I'd be alot safer underneath a burning engine or exploding transmission; at least then we'd have a better explanation for poor physicality and disturbed emotionality. Having no way out of a serial killer's plot or homocidal blueprint is still safer than being caught in your arms knowing you'd willingly push further for heartbreak.