self-taught to be

thoughtless she said her medi-

cation made it impossible but it

happened I changed at first then I

tried to change    I drank a lot at the time 

missed possible memories of a life-

time 

 

it never came to that       they stayed 

where they were               comfortable   

the reliability of a realm we cannot 

conceive of

forever-never-forgotten     they remain

in the pleroma 

like something I would do