10/17/21

I've had one relationship in my life, many many years ago, that made me feel so safe and so loved

And that's the one that broke me for all of the rest

Maybe we seek out that feeling of that really real connection we made, or that we thought we made, for the rest of our lives until it's found or not found

I think I'm a secret Romantic

Unable to let myself go

For all the times I did, I was slapped to turn the other cheek and be told no

Deep in my mind I've decided that they always go 

And I've shown all there is to show

I crave to shut my mouth and just be

I crave to let someone who loves me just take over me

But I lay cold to the touch and alone in a wrapping of blankets and nobody knows and nobody cares about what my heart craves

Males look past my eyes and line me up with all of the other choices so easy to swipe through 

If I show nothing to you - but my heart - there will always be a girl who will show you everything she's got

And the ones like me will just be forgot

I stand with my hands tied in a knot too beat down to even raise my head because a lot of people who have touched my soul over the years have made me feel dead

Fall is coming in soon and my craving to nest down into someone protective and warm will grow greater but there's no one who gives a damn about my heart crave

There is no one who would take the time to look into my eyes and learn me

You would just pretend and then you'd burn me

I am a secret Romantic no matter how strong I try to be

I wish someone would just listen to me.