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As I trip on my words, 

And stumble on my thoughts. 

I experience tingling sensations, 

Loss of balance and lack of coordination. 

 

It started when my immune system ruptured out of control, 

Which could have been linked to deficiency of cholecalciferol. 

 

It attacked my myelin sheath resulting multiple lesions,

Which led to life-long treatment as there is yet to be a cure. 

 

So my mind wanders off and steadily dances with my demons. 

As I contemplate suicide wondering if I can fight this anymore.

Autoimmune diseaseChronic IllnessMultiple Sclerosis

◄ Gone

Cogitare ►

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Jason Bayliss

Tue 13th Apr 2021 18:03

I have some idea of this predicament. After about a year of tests and a couple of MRI's, I was pretty sure I had either MS or early onset dementia. As it happens, the final diagnosis was FND (Functional Neurological Disorder) and significant white matter brain disease. So I get where you're coming from with a, "Wandering mind." I've now been retired on grounds of ill health. Staying positive and strong is a challenge, but it’s a challenge I accept. It's worth it, you know? Especially if your writing's anything to go by, this is really good.

J. x

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Nazia Khan

Tue 13th Apr 2021 05:33

Welcome ??? I hope you're fine

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