Self-blame

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Guilt has got me, or is it shame
Finding excuses, someone to blame
Trying to get the mumbled words out
Needing to talk but not wanting to shout
Trapped in a world that is just full of sin
Caught in a fight I don't feel I can win
Capturing demons that run through my head
Locked well away, those thoughts left unsaid
Deep is the prison where I keep them locked in
Hearing their screams, the turmoil within
Holding them back as they try to escape
Scared and distraught of what may awake
In self-denial, I refuse to accept
Looking for labels, but not found one yet
Is there a name for people like me?
Is there a way I will ever be free?
Just carrying on, I refuse to explore
Put on a smile, other feelings ignored
Beat myself up, I know I cause pain
But still, all is silent so my troubles remain
There’s no other to blame
No other but me
Until I find a voice
That’s the way it will be

© curiousdud3 04/2021

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