How I wish I could be numb.

I yearn to be able to feel nothing.

But I feel everything.

These all encompassing emotions.

They won’t let me go.

They’re hold is so tight and so strong.

I can’t breathe.

I need air.

But there’s nothing.

No air.

No room to breathe.

Nothing but the strangle hold they have put me in.

Oh, how I long for life to pass me by and feel nothing.

But I can’t, for I fell everything.

 

(november 2007)