I have to ask you

I know you don't want to hear this

or see me like this 

but I need to know

 

Do you remember when I was little 

and I couldn't do anything on my own

Do you remember feeling so special

because I needed you

Do you remember how it felt to protect me

when no one else could

Is holding me in your arms a distant memory

Do you wish you could go back

to her

I don't remember much

except the love I felt

 

I know you love me but I still wonder

if it was worth it

When you look at me now

Where I am 

The way I talk 

The way I dress

The things I like 

The person I am becoming 

Is she enough for you?

 

I am only asking because I have not

felt like I was enough 

for a very long time 

And maybe if you hold me once more

I will be just that 

 

I had to build this garden within 

my own walls 

to feel safe 

to feel loved

Roses upon roses 

Every color more vibrant than 

the next 

She's so beautiful 

I will leave her here to prosper 

 

Ripping the delicate beauty's from 

their roots 

and telling them 

"You have always been enough"