I'm stuck here sitting here staring at the ceiling wishing I could just get lost into her voice. None of you idiots realize how lucky you are the hear her because she's a cosmic beauty and I am just lost, lonely I've been this way for 4 years now. I know it is my fault but dammit I made her a promise until I pass away I'd wait for her.The worst part about it is I worry about her and ask myself every minute of the day is she okay is she fine. These is hell just to hold her hand at the end of this road.