If Only I Could Take Alan's Advice
And the line from that song is my reassurance in life
That all is ok and alright and live now
and then I just watch as unbidden
I spiral back around and then I'm lost and then I'm here
Can't I just go just let go just calm down
Can't I just watch and listen and live in my round
And here it is, my mind is just unsound
Burdened by my future that is running afoul
It's not a thing, it's not happening
Focus on the day that is current and free
What am I doing I need to plan
No, just lean back, just let it land
Oh god, this is ridiculous, just let it go
No, no, I need to write that down
Wait, What! Oh god, I forgot
Ooh, I like the look of that corner lot,
Oh, here it is, er, too many sounds.
All I have is sounds.
Impending doom for a little choice
Just live your life!
There's too much voice
I just want my hand to stop shaking
My mind to slow down and stop waiting
On the next mistake I create to stay
In the comfort of my failure of accepting my fate
That I am neither as good or as bad
As anything that resides in my head.