belated realizations of my Father
older I become
the more of what you intended to do and be
I am finding is gradually being brought
into the light of my life at last
step by daily step piece by beloved piece
the silenced constancy of your once misunderstood tender care
finally drawing the worthy attention and rewards
never paid in your living days.
The unnoticed filling of our home with an air of gentle though firm concerns
for my benefit that were naively ignored.
But now uncovered for what they really were;
your overlooked way's
way's of freeing my mind and helping it to go in the right direction.
Father, I would like to think and assure myself
that it isn't too late to dismiss the old distances that stayed between us for far too long
and acknowledge that your guiding presence in my upbringing
always was there standing deeply rooted and patient in the background of my youth
like a great strong limbed sheltering tree
love leafed was always there
where my fledgeling heart could nest and grow
becoming strong enough to fly as high
as high as you intended it should
to where with hope and gratefulness
I can feel once and for all time
the gazing of your spirits eyes alighting
on my fully opened wings.