The tears are blurring my eyes

Been through so many lives

Take me everywhere I go

But I can't be home

 

Push it down when im out with my friend

Feeling good cause I’m scared that I can’t

Don’t want to unpack it but im scared ill forget

 

And my grandma just lost her mom

Photos of her dad and she say

Look at all that he’s missed 

But what about you

 

Are you watching from up above

Do you frown when I do something wrong

Feeling not good enough for myself

Cause when im down I pray to you for help

 

I’m on a hiatus from my faith

How could a god that loves me take you away

We’re at a bit of a standill

He needs my forgiveness or Ill burn in hell

 

I think about you everyday

You'll never meet any boys I take on dates

And my brothers so young

Won’t see him become someone

 

I’m scared something will happen to me on a plane

Fearing the worst almost everyday

Thinking the sky will fall through like it did when I lost you