I think I understand, now

It’s less about the outcome

The realising of one choice over another

when neither is consequence free

 

It’s about the process

of asking myself what I want

What am I prepared to sacrifice

for an uncertain future 

 

This in itself is growth

Heeding my soul calling

A half belief in my deserving

of love and contentment

 

It’s a strange kind of peace

to leave before I have lived

in the fullness of my dreams

Yet, knowing, at last, what living means.