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Adrian Metcalf

Email: adrian.metcalf85@gmail.com
Twitter: @BurningTico85
Updated: Sat, 27 May 2017 09:21 pm

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Biography

I started writing as a Senior in high school as a way of coping with mental illness. Specifically, derealization, depression, panic attacks, and so on. When I write typically I use it release my emotions (as I have little other way and it helps defuse dissociative panic). I have grown up damn near dissociated my entire adolescent life, as such in order to survive in school and life I began to mostly think visually and in fantasy (which has been detrimental to my overall functionality in society, but it kept me alive, so worth it!). Due to this I really enjoy things like physics and math as they are benefitted by visualization. Similarly, my poetry, writing, and most likely drawing/music (just starting so haven't made anything yet, though I assume it will follow the same sort of trend), is very largely reliant on imagery to convey emotion. Anyways, if you take the time to read one of my poems and want to discuss its meaning or just give me some feedback (tell me anything, I'd far rather improve then be complemented) email me at Adrian.metcalf85@gmail.com or hit up my Twitter (although I rarely go on it) @BurningTico85. Hope you like my stuff :D

Samples

Note: Typically my works are much longer, but this is a good sample one, made me cry when I wrote it. Don't particularly know why... but yeah, love poetry! :D God: It becomes in the night what was once in the day, And that My dear Is God

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keith jeffries

Sun 3rd Sep 2017 13:16

Hello Adrian, Having read three of your poems Transient Beauty, The Begging Tree and Dad I salute your inspiration and expression. You are very talented and possess a fine understanding of the language. I look forward to reading more of your work. Congratulations on your recent success. Thanks you. Keith

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Cynthia Buell Thomas

Sat 29th Jul 2017 12:23

Adrian, you made a lovely comment on a piece of mine, 'Girl in a Lake'.

It was an actual experience. My boyfriend and I, probably eighteen, were returning late one night from a very happy day of beaching, quite a distance from our hometown. It must have been midnight as we passed the shoreline of our local lake. The moon was full. The magic was there. I asked him to pull over and park.

The rest is as it is. He was scandalized, but he didn't interfere. Nor did he join me. He stayed in the car watching for a police patrol. Nude bathing was not OK in Canada. How he would have explained my actions is anybody's guess. It was a moment that underwrites my love of nature and poetry, their inextricable connection. And the young man was a loving, best friend for life.

I will try to catch up on some more of your poems.

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adrian metcalf

Mon 12th Jun 2017 20:57

Thanks, Michaela! Yeah, I can, unfortunately, relate quite a bit to the panic. For me, it's more of the panic over losing myself completely, which is ironic because that fear then drives me to a schizophrenic state which is the definition of losing yourself.

Been doing a lot better though, so don't worry it can be totally fixed, just takes the right guidance, patience, and god. Hope you like my poetry, and all the best! 😀

P.S. I wonder if you can relate to my poem 'God' in my bio, its purpose is that when I was at my worst in terms of derealization and panic whenever I slept I would never have nightmares, just simply felt at peace. That peaceful presence to me was God (I'm not religious, but the idea is the same... maybe I should be though!)

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Michaela Sheldon

Mon 12th Jun 2017 20:21

After reading your bio, I am truly fascinated how similar our experiences may be. I struggled (and still am) with mental health: de-realization and panic attacks. I constantly struggle with questions of self. I begin to panic over what I am as a physical being and who I am and it sends me over the edge to the point I cannot breathe. The paranoia of death as well leads me to a sort-of schizophrenic state.

I couldn't agree more with Cynthia, thank you for your words. I will be reading more once I am off work.
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adrian metcalf

Wed 31st May 2017 06:31

Thank you so much for your kind words and helpful critiques, Cynthia. I'm so happy to hear you will read my stuff (I have hundreds so I assume my blog will be consistent for a while, assuming I can edit all of them quickly). And Nothing wrong with having your priorities straight!

Thank you! I'm really proud of it 😀

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Cynthia Buell Thomas

Tue 30th May 2017 13:30

Welcome to WOL, Adrian. And thank you for your honest Bio. I really look forward to reading more of your work. I'm not a computer buff, and rarely interact on line, except for this WOL site. I've often been invited, but I have lots to keep me busy off-line. And, yes, this really does make me a modern 'dinosaur'. I couldn't agree more. But that's how it is.

'God' is fabulous! Worth tears.

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