Poetry Blog by Rose Casserley
Betterment is not illusive
Happiness capturing missilery fireworks
brightly shower the ethereal darkness: like ambitions
must not be grounded
but released enabling them to reach full heights
of possibility
even if their descending embers, matching failure
threaten to ignite despair.
Nevertheless, they will still have been a must-be dare performed
a setting alight and burning to ashes of timorous...
Wednesday 16th October 2019 1:47 pm
lingering wound
hour by marching hour
time has all eventualities in its tread
a progression that brings down the walls of every life
Inexorably linked, we are inescapable subjects
our final destinations the same
an awaiting darkly rewarding price
of nothing for the cost of having lived
the thoughts of such payments
sink into my mind like a stone
impossible to put asi...
Saturday 12th October 2019 11:32 am
all the reparations you will ever need
I'm constantly wondering my only love
if you had by now reconsidered
during the lost time of whole weeks
of how like an unextinguishable bright flame
my love is still waiting to be accepted again
and chase away your hearts old coldnesses.
O my adored!
let us both come out of our self-imposed wintering shadows
so you may lie down on this half-empty summer warm bed of m...
Wednesday 9th October 2019 1:37 pm
abandoned declination of a stately house and gardens
it's lakes left to green scummed limpidity
mournfully willowed over
an absence of punters and swans sadly prevailing
time lingering without promise.
Of visitors, these days are bereft
and there is no wildlife higher than the unkempt grasses
fountains thirst for water around which
few hopeful birds converge
weeds carrying on, overruling pathways
driveway gravel ...
Tuesday 8th October 2019 12:40 pm
' real ' out of mind experience
yesterday for the first time in my life
I really, really sensed being in the atmosphere of another place
as well as being where I was at the time
but I can't describe how it felt
though I can say it had a wonderful, wonderful feeling to it
yes, two places at the same time
the there and then and that strange beautiful
deep elsewhere
the second one as real as the first
...
Monday 7th October 2019 2:07 pm
child's death in black and white
the big black cars
the small white coffin
the black mourners
the white mourners
the black clothes
the white handkerchiefs
the black stone church
the white interior
the black wooden benches
the white tiled floor
the black priest
the white altar boys
the black cassock
the white vestments
the black bible
the white pages
the black organ keys
the whit...
Sunday 6th October 2019 6:12 pm
subterraneously shuffling
Long subway unpeopled
apart from the occasional drugged or drunken occupant
of a cardboard bedroom.
I walk under its dimmed sodium sky
from one night excluded end
to the other night recommencing end
stride invading this underpass concrete world
my footsteps giving birth to echoes
that ricochet off cavernous graffiti sprayed walls.
Eventually rejoining the nig...
Sunday 6th October 2019 1:06 pm
eviction
made to go on
trying to survive outside
your hearts chamber
has changed my name to sorrow
I walk
through
my life's loveless shadows
depending on hopes light
to nourish my way.
This lonely path
is taking me further than death
towards an imprisoning destination
for lost souls
emptied of all consolations
I am bedded on dying embers
of what ...
Saturday 5th October 2019 11:59 am
and it didn't get any better
last night
saw the ' BEEBOPPERS ' at the Crown
kind of severely real music lacking noisemakers
ear borers, one-paced players
sex pistols rip-offs
trying at the finish
to get away with smartarse excuses
when questioned about the state of their instruments
" fuck all funds disease man " they said
failing to hide their embarrassments
behind Sid Vicious unimpr...
Friday 4th October 2019 4:17 pm
of a snuffing out
for how long will
the golden mane of the lionesque sun
unwind earthwards
before he and humanity
have to face the slow coming truth
of him having to burn to death
in his own fire
taking his life-giving light and warmth
with him
leaving the world to deal with a frightening
and possibly short future
their backs up against the walls
of a darkened nuclear-wintered pl...
Thursday 3rd October 2019 2:42 pm
Fox and THEY
THEY said ' it should be killed '
THEY said ' it is vermin '
those thoughtless, soulless statements sicken me.
Surely at some childhood days in woodland point
in their now, adult cruel minded days
THEY must have been privileged enough to see
the sudden coming out from undergrowths
of that magnificent fiery coloured vulpine
surely their pulses would have been quic...
Wednesday 2nd October 2019 4:17 pm
prima in waiting
up and coming ballerina of the dancing school
beauty, fresh, hair gloss black, decades away from grey
demeaning age inflicts no rule
is yet an outcast her youthfulness keeps at bay
she joins the queue of hopefuls, this, fledgeling star
places her dreams on wings praying they will take flight
and find fame and fortunes reservoir
where one day maybe her name on theatre fronts w...
Tuesday 1st October 2019 4:17 pm
year old
chair seat high and beloved
doddering
starting to be yourself
in the unmapped territory of your own home
little explorer
each day making new discoveries
that will in time explain themselves better
how your intentions of conquering the need to understand
will blossom
and how fortunate for you
that your early days will not disclose
the worst of fears to you
...Friday 27th September 2019 4:38 pm
beneath a heavy snow delivering sky
recalling an overwhelming counterpaned severity that year
a lock-in and lock-down instigator
it's knee deep, unadulterated milky blanket restrictions
kept on and on and on adding more and yet more of itself
to the elderlies problem pile
kept on and on adding more and yet more of itself
to the infant's excitement pile
being of neither age
while concerned for the old an...
Sunday 22nd September 2019 5:01 pm
most utopian of independencies
freedom in the true sense of the word
is never truly free
if you want the real thing
then you may have to pay the highest prices you have ever paid
it is a wild child without a care in the world of its own
a stitched to the skin all in one suit of original liberty
a key to the universe of everyone's ultimate desire
an endless ride on the wind
eel slippery, un...
Saturday 21st September 2019 12:27 pm
of a dad who never was
not as a father but
had performed let me say and rightly so
as a sadistic pretender to that title
danced the child all the ways through false promises
to where the evil side of his nature
would be waiting for her to grow and assume her prisoner status
how she would learn to dread his waking,
his rising like an avenging fallen angel
angry to be sober
while reli...
Friday 20th September 2019 4:50 pm
birth of memory's death
" not sure " he said.
It was his birthday
and I,
hoping he would not have forgotten
had put him to the test
another one he had failed.
He is beginning to see nothing
except, shadows
that hide his;
childhood
adolescence
working
wedding
and ( my ) christening day past
those that Mum has in photograph albums
reminders
of their two of a ki...
Wednesday 18th September 2019 12:38 pm
figure of fun
you left me in a pool of tears feeling like Pagliacci
you left me crucified by your betrayal feeling like Jesus
while your sinfulness is free to go on wherever you are
your handsomeness flag flying high
for other women to pay their sexual allegiances to
I'm just another lamb for the love slaughter
brooding on thoughts of your arms around another
traitorously dishonouring ...
Tuesday 17th September 2019 12:42 pm
an ideal deal
like all that lives
their beginnings are given over to ending.
I cannot recall a single instance
when death was willing
to put his soul subtracting process on hold
and allow all that live's
to hang on to their existences a little bit longer
or is it that he, being busy as he always is
consider's lengthening those existences
too much of an interruption
in his...
Monday 16th September 2019 2:28 pm
is this the hope-ward road?
through wastelands
of ruined love
sorrow my only luggage
deceivers have stolen
every one of my hearts treasures
now they are dancing partners
with the inflictions of memory
am I ever to leave
their traitorous damaging's
far behind
in my rear-view mirror
or go on forever trying to cry away
the distances I am travelling
on this highway of blue shadows?
...
Saturday 14th September 2019 2:58 pm
with hAvOc as a memory
( not personal )
From behind the parental bedroom door
argumentative hullaballo's
loud, petty, spat out accusations instigating pathetic replies
words no longer romantically sweetened worn thin, curse broken
a soulless sourness unable to be swallowed by either screaming mouth
creating enough collateral to last the children living in each of the epicentres a lifetime,
profanely...
Friday 13th September 2019 3:18 pm
inexplicable entities
untouchable invasions of surreality
mysteriously flowing fully-fledged
flooding the wake concerned
now vacated chambers
of my slumbering mind
from unknown sources
born in enigmatic
undetectable elsewheres
who can say or retrace
the reasons, why's, wherefores
that gave them birth, permissions
to stage their weird intangible
muddled performances
in the clo...
Thursday 12th September 2019 3:28 pm
unforgettable underdogs aka real human beings ( a just HAS TO BE for all on WOL )
mule regarded enslaved human victims
wrists, necks, scraped red
from lifetimes iron cuffed and collared
tear cryers, sweat pourers
black boys, black boys to men
black girls, black girls to women
daily whipped captives
never an end to pain for them and theirs
coming from a very long bloodline of others
mistreated in the same beast of burden way
enforced cane cutters
...Tuesday 10th September 2019 1:09 pm
weak days
Mournday-grieving over the heavy loss of your love
Chooseday-am I going to be able to offload my love for you and lighten the search for another?
Whens?day-as soon as my heart finds the strength
Whursday-hoping I will be strong enough to carry on
Freeday-finally! I have succeeded in lifting the burden of your departure off my shoulders
Sadderday-now left with crushed memories
...Monday 9th September 2019 2:33 pm
withdrawal
love, I have given up playing your hastily becoming uncertain game
luckless player, my participation I will hold back
your worth to me has lost all acclaim
red rose you were now decaying petals fading, black
begone all promises made with empty words
speak no more to my hungry desires
those false flamed temptations now unheard
though made cold my heart turns away from such...
Saturday 7th September 2019 11:09 am
a somewhere else of me
here is a planet that could be my mind
valleys bottomless, mountains that defy measurement
there is a wrong sky overhead
presently brimmed with one of its multitudinous disagreeable moods
the ground belonging to my feet alters shape
as if I had committed a crime against it
sentencing me to stumble after stumble
from the home of my sad internal sight
I can see how shado...
Thursday 15th August 2019 12:55 pm
evaluating you
without you if only for one day
I would have to struggle-glut on patience
tasting of your sweetnesses.
But should that minimal period extend into foreverness
I would become the sickened animal diseased by loneliness
beyond any other hearts help
worthy only of a quick death.
Tuesday 13th August 2019 12:21 pm
boarding school regrets
so there you are, as me, aged ten
kneeling with other debonair's to be
for the beneficial status of Dear Mummy and Dear Daddy's sake
( and a smaller religiously unsure portion for God's sake )
In those distant playtimes, you often saw
what the ignorant teachers rumoured to be
' officially uneducated Gypsy children '
clinging to the outside of the wrought iron railed schoo...
Monday 12th August 2019 4:24 pm
to a great inspirer
WOW!
didn't know there was a key to fit my mostly closed mind
but you
ultimate locksmith have found it
and opened the floodgates.
Now, away I sail on a new boat, on a new and endless ocean
every brain drain unblocked
every brake put in the off position forever
every shit coloured thought repainted in the rarest of shades
and, after being amazingl...
Friday 9th August 2019 10:51 am
stitches in time
I can see them now
Mothers cutting-out scissors
sacred item
heavy in her delicate fingers
snipping at the edges of paper patterns
so flimsy and soft as the tissues she used
to wipe my little girl nose in winter time.
Now, more than half a life away
in kept memories of her
opening and closing the metal jaws
steady as ever
along chalk lines of home-made designs
...Wednesday 7th August 2019 6:28 pm
GENTLE JESUS (or) jEaLOuS jIM
look here dude!
if I loved the Messiah
any less than I do
might very well disappear
the miracle of me and you!
Tuesday 6th August 2019 6:49 pm
resolutioner
poor ( and lucky ) me
over-intoxicated with a variety of, remembrances
photo fashioned slide showing in my mind
many I love, but
knock! knock! knock!
bitter ones, a darkness about them
at a door, I never used to open.
Has that darkness dissolved yet?
I look more closely and, yes it has!
their eyes no longer mock out of mine
or cause my, tormenting regretfulness ...
Tuesday 6th August 2019 11:07 am
age disbeliever
dreams the nights away in the long-gone lands of youth.
Rises convinced she is still there
that time for her has been put on hold.
Mornings are for pampering
futile attempts to remove the slightest sign
that could damage her reflection
ruin attractions of young admirers
who she is convinced still see in her
the beauty that once was
and they will go on chasing
...Saturday 3rd August 2019 9:28 am
last in line
atlas spread
I track your worldly route
across countries better weathered
none wintered like here at present
a season you always considered to be
the soul damaging time of year
with its gloomy marriages to ice, snow and arctic winds
that for you would not divorce those
kind of mind injuring partners soon enough
so different from the tropical countries
you are drivin...
Friday 2nd August 2019 2:49 pm
Aesop's inspirations
spin me a tale
let it include monsters and one-eyed giants
that I can familiarise myself with
maybe a Pegasus horse
who could take me on heavenly winged flights
free of earth's captivity
but let it be happy ever after
after the end
continuing while I lie
fairy taled in your arms
my breathings temporarily withheld
at each of your astonishments
every word a caress...
Thursday 1st August 2019 11:08 am
one poor cow one poor cow eater
stopped
motorway gridlocked
behind a cattle transporter.
Through a snout sized vent,
you sniff at the air of freedom
head occasionally turning side on
so that one eye at a time can stare at guilty me
who knows as I can imagine you might do
in telling me with what I feel is such an accusatory
death frightened stare
how I mouth-wateringly help to shorten you...
Wednesday 31st July 2019 9:46 pm
I really do love you
five words
empty until real meaning fills them
meanings that would do more for my emptiness
than any deed ever could
five words I had wanted to hear
for so long
but never did until
I had climbed to the top
of a heart crossed mountain of truth
called you.
Wednesday 31st July 2019 10:49 am
mark up
love costs
has to be purchased using
a high percentage of the hearts ups and downs credit card
the ultimate in comfort buying
Love is a begging child
often subjected to too many snubs
an experiment
a trial by times jury
an understated state
but always strong enough to endure
keeps its engine ticking over
to even face the challenges of death...
Tuesday 30th July 2019 10:41 am
coming absences of sun and you
queue-jumping
impatient autumn is stopping summer in its tracks
registering its decaying purpose
before any starting pistol had been fired
before the season's alarm clock
had sounded time to rise and waste
randomly instruct the leaf falling processes
overruling any chance for august to finish goodbye's
Only a dead week
since tanking harvesters toppled fiel...
Saturday 27th July 2019 11:00 am
please! please! don't snap! ( an anti-dementia appeal )
a more than regular request between thoughts
a plea to the link
keeping me connected to who I really am
and not becoming her who drifts in and out of memories
stands, staring into the distances of nothing
rambler down lanes to nowhere
lost ship on an endless empty ocean
moth who can no longer find the flame
intermittently inconveniently unknowingly inconveniencing herself
...Thursday 25th July 2019 10:58 am
thinking in frames
wanting to find you everywhere, especially
in the galleries of my hopes
a personal Tate for private viewings
an endless exposition I want to walk in
with loving opinions on my tongue
and smiles on my face that haven't been painted there.
Glorified is how I want to see you
in each display, in each stance, in each clothed or unclothed version
but above all
origin...
Tuesday 23rd July 2019 4:40 pm
tender deluge
in this rain time
I have written for you
a love letter
each line
warm as those November flames
it's fifth-day children
remember, remember
flowered, gem-stoned,
doing their utmost
to gently, slowly
dance with your soul
along, the ways
of a heaven
word after, word
builds, beautifies.
Heart-written lines
for the saint in you to bless
t...
Monday 22nd July 2019 3:20 pm
oiled and watered immortalizations
the arrangement was for her and her and her
to be the artistic inspirational
flesh suppliers
their beautiful fully naked forms
portrayed so life-like that,
even the most damning of critics
would have almost expected them
to step out of the painting.
Sunday 21st July 2019 6:07 pm
when meandering ended
once upon some years ago
so past stored calendrical events tell me
we were not you and I.
I call it missed out time,
a time when the chance of finding heaven
didn't exist
there was nothing of it
that spoke of potentiality
mist misshaped
like a dream
about the realms of emptiness
needing to be disremembered
except when a chink of possibi...
Saturday 20th July 2019 10:33 am
no more the demanding sound of his snapping fingers
am I to costume myself with facades just for him?
falsifying, prance doll-like on his stage as the person I am not
uphold his belief in sordidness.
These collective pretentious identities,
irregularities, and bad habits, not mine
he abusively pours into the vessel of my true title
tries to endow me with darker attitudes and voices
attempts to warp the dimensions of my nat...
Friday 19th July 2019 1:31 pm
Rise of the adolescents
they've grown
I cannot defend my soft position as easily
and as softly as I used to do
no matter how many times I raise my hands
in peaceful surrender
armistice eludes
and it drains the Mother in me
to watch them change.
Verbally they shoot indiscriminately, on
behalf of their immature demands.
Where is the shield of love I depended on
to withstand their ...
Tuesday 16th July 2019 10:55 am
girls in the know
it had been raining all, day,
but that didn't stop her from laughing
because she is one of the girls
that live in each other's lives
where sadness can never be allowed to compete
they simply turn away from it saying,
this is us who have shed our last tears
who will never again lose another moment of happiness
even in our dreams.
They walk through their days as ...
Monday 15th July 2019 3:18 pm
please don't laugh at this insanely inspired poem called -Seeing three pieces of plastic becoming involved in a love triangle with each other
Parked up in a windy empty street, munching.
A black and obviously empty dog shit bag tumbled slowly by.
For whatever brain dead reason I watched its wafting progress in the wing mirror.
Soon it was joined by a little white piece of plastic
and, they seemed quite happy to be rolling along together for a while
but that was until they were joined by another piece of white plastic
b...
Friday 12th July 2019 2:20 pm
accelerations
how many times will I be forced into swallowing
life's broken promises that I expected to have been fulfilled by now
ones that I had hoped would have gone down much smoother and in one piece
comfortably shielding my eyes and ears
preventing them from seeing or hearing
the increased speeding up of each days self dismantling
pushing me through the last chance saloon doors faster an...
Thursday 11th July 2019 1:07 pm
passing into obscurity of an iron horse rider
thinking back 'bout a guy I loved
went by the name of Mad Mike
long-haired petrol head
one time straddler of a Harley
so many times we went the distance
and I don't mean in miles!
usual spliff after the usual you know what
smiling at each other's smiles.
How we used to blur to the coast
at death challenging speeds
then, in the sand dunes
both giving as 'v...
Wednesday 10th July 2019 1:57 pm
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