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I listened because I missed your voice.
Off course I'm going to pretend that you were talking to me....duh!!!
God, if only you knew.
I was mega shy
but I couldn't stay away and that was dangerous for me.
I wasn't ready.
Now I'm almost there,
but you're gone.
Six goldfinches in two weeks.
But double checking reveals my mistakes
and we all know how easy they are to mak...
Wednesday 4th March 2020 2:27 am
Straight away I have morphed,
Love that it's quiet.
I caught the funeral but I was still horny!!
Maybe it will go away now,
disappear and let me be free.
But I'm in my 30's!!
Friday 28th February 2020 12:06 am
I seek that s#*t out
and feel shocked when it burns.
numbs the soul,
takes over the thought.
In there lies the attraction.
The attraction and attention.
And the attentive ways last for days and days.
and I'm well aware,
but then I am left.
Left in the squalor that has built around me.
The numbness dissipates and I'm alive...
Friday 3rd January 2020 1:12 pm
I can't stop, I can't stop, I can't stop, I can't stop.
And I think and I think and I think and I think.
And I want and I want and I want and I want.
I can't have, I can't have, I cant have, I cant have.
And I need and I need and I need and I need.
And I love and I love and I love and I love
And I breed and I breed and I breed and I breed.
And I yearn for the day I can breathe...
Thursday 2nd January 2020 12:07 am
We laughed about it,
But they are real.
I see them often.
All they need is a bit of green.
Friday 24th March 2017 12:34 am
This is not a home to me
And my struggle is now
It's taking me back then
And I've never cried harder
How can you be jealous of blood
The state of me
Friday 17th March 2017 12:12 am
I'm so annoyed,
I just rushed back.
I could here it in your voice.
You really made it sound like I didn't have a choice.
I feel the worst
And I have missed
My most important lesson.
For this will be my livelihood and honestly I'm stressing.
About the stool I hold you on
About the games you play.
I cannot bare it anymore
I no longer want to stay
In this house,...
Thursday 16th March 2017 8:59 pm
I cannot forgive you,
It's all too raw.
You expect just to be able to walk through that door,
And have everyone fall all over the place,
And ignore the fact that you won't stop your disgrace.
I tried and I tried but you took that for granted,
Knowing that I was blind,
My mind enchanted.
I just think of the kids,
And everything we have done,
How you probably think ...
Wednesday 15th March 2017 1:48 pm
I know tonight I got it right,
This warm feeling now tells me.
I'm thinking of the better ones,
I know my time with them is not that long.
It's Irish how something can take you away,
From everything you have loved.
But I'm here right now,
My dear sweet boy,
And I know that you accept it.
For all the hard work that's been done.
I'm proud and will ne'er be sceptic,...
Wednesday 8th March 2017 11:05 pm
What a difference,
The lobster is not helping
And there are bloody wasps everywhere.
It's hard to forget
And now I have to remember everything.
Deal with it.
When you just tried to help.
Saturday 30th July 2016 8:59 pm
I feel sort of free
And I told them about my poems.
Friendship is real.
So is love
And I am bloody lucky.
Still sort of edgy.
Saturday 18th June 2016 1:47 am
free to be
free to be me.
Not a care.
Just for everybody.
I feel good.
Like everyone should.
Friends are gold
and family is priceless.
I'm glad I know.
But I don't know everything.
I can't wait.
Monday 30th May 2016 12:31 am
This must be how it feels
to turn the wheels.
I feel like I'm finally living,
taking as well as giving.
But I wish the cost would have been smaller.
Control was not an option.
But the sky has been beautiful lately.
Monday 23rd May 2016 11:01 pm
I will reach,
But not yet.
Him, a leech.
But of no worth.
I want to taste the earth.
Want it to grow.
Through my body.
It's what I ask for.
Sunday 22nd May 2016 7:52 pm
I can only write when I am down,
When I am sad.
Feel like a clown.
You were still gone....
Your head was down.
Stop and think.
Take time to breathe,
Don't let things get on top of me.
When you drink,
It just kills me.
I thought about the other side.
And I'm the one who takes pride,
In thinking the mediums are untrue....
Monday 9th November 2015 10:29 pm
Can't believe you didn't add.
Makes life sad.
Back to work on the first,
David makes my life worse.
Shut the window.
That local girl,
Stalked her in your pictures.
Not looked at her baby yet.
Do you want me to look for you?
Saturday 22nd August 2015 10:45 pm
At least for me.
I never knew her.
Back at home.
My son wants to see green.
It got so bad,
He called him dad.
He liked you.
Saturday 22nd August 2015 10:36 pm
My face is numb like my heart has always been,
Tim said I was used goods and that was on the first.
Now it's the second,
I must be ragged out.
I wish I'd have had the confidence.
I told Zoe.
Saturday 22nd August 2015 10:33 pm
I think he's gone.
No effort required, for him.
Controlling behaviour.... Check mate.
Second time unlucky.
STOP BREEDING PRINCESSES.
Tonight I'm getting smashed.
F@@k the weed,
I don't wanna be happy.
Saturday 22nd August 2015 10:15 pm
I want to go because today was hard and I'm too tired to sleep. I can't live here much longer. Business as unusual. Give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give give.
Sunday 16th November 2014 11:30 pm
I like surprises but he keeps telling me. It's been well discussed. As good as it gets. It was going to be a shotgun.
Sunday 2nd November 2014 10:51 pm
I still feel like it's us against the world, Not involving him. I'm not the best at dancing. Times must be bad. I just want to sneak in because last night was great. But mixing the signals..... It's an odd situation, clearly I wasn't ready. But it's well past the point. Tomorrow will make things worse. Emptiness is the worst. I want it to be business and I will always tell them t...
Sunday 2nd November 2014 10:40 pm
I wish there was a like button.
Then I wouldn't be tempted to write anything.
My English is getting better.
Shelley is amazing
but I will be sad come June.
The relationship should of stopped at talk of kids.
Both became ignorant.
Me at first
then him, when I wasn't fussed.
I remember being at a party once with your mates,
drugged up and happy.
Long time ago.
Friday 7th February 2014 7:58 pm
Wonderful plans for the future,
with the bairns.
Working from home sounds immense.
The schools are pretty terrifying
and i need a car.
Friday 7th February 2014 7:41 pm
Last night. Dancing about, smokey club, Will smith was there. You were upstairs wasted. I still ran up. Still in my dreams.
Friday 6th December 2013 3:03 pm
It's been worse since I read about it. At least I now know. The chicken or the egg. Got me some class pure o. Gonna have to tell. It's only fair so, I've saved the pages. Mother f#%&ing pure o.
Tuesday 10th September 2013 9:02 am
Did I write to YOU once. I want to rescue the second. Flea ridden. I asked for permission. I might disobey anyway. Without an answer. It's charcoal grey. Durham massy is great.
Monday 19th August 2013 1:41 am
Allowance is tops. Tidy tidy. I've attempted cake pops. Mmmm. Its time to talk.
Saturday 29th June 2013 8:00 pm
Thank-you. Sorry that i have to say, Thank-you in this silly way, But I cannot message you, Or write on your page, I should have thanked you sooner, Not at this stage. So Ally/fredy , I really do. Wish you'd keep writing too.
Tuesday 25th June 2013 10:29 pm
I remember that feeling, It didn't go well. I seem to be a pillar. That one. That one was still looking for it.
Wednesday 19th June 2013 11:39 pm
I wish I could start a conversation. But I don't make a habit of being deceptive. Your back. It made me sad. Till he made me laugh. I think this will bother me forever.
Tuesday 18th June 2013 8:23 am
Oi you! You nearly hit my boy the other day. This is delayed. One stop away. You would have been spayed. I don't normally rhyme. But I'm thinking this time. Try it!
Saturday 8th June 2013 11:31 pm
He takes the world personally. Almost in tears. I wish he was here. I don't understand. I feel for the kin.
Wednesday 22nd May 2013 11:11 pm
I'm sorry but this was never about you. Although your silence is uncomfortable. This is exceptional help. I never thought that this was treatable. I have a lot of love. The clue is in the title. Charity shops are the best. I hope to see you soon enough. Incredible friends?
Wednesday 8th May 2013 11:22 pm
I should have taken more and ran, I should have took them all. Positively baby steps. I'd take care, my love. I should have took them all.
Tuesday 7th May 2013 9:00 am
My thoughts are exhausting my love. I think i love you more. Astrology devalues and life is weary. Impatient for better days. No thinking allowed. How unfair.
Sunday 5th May 2013 9:29 pm
I cried three times yesterday. I want to make things go away, And just see you, But twas you that left. I'd keep my boy. I didn't cry because of you. Like every one I just simply don't know what to do. I think I am very lucky. A loving man. But insecure. One child but boy do I want more. The broody season.
Wednesday 1st May 2013 2:28 pm