Poetry Blog by Hallielle Rose Dawson
You should know
That I have found the answers
I didn't even know we had.
You should know that I found answers,
And that I know what I have to do,
Not just for me,
But for you.
I will fix it, gemello.
I made you a promise.
Anything for you.
Tuesday 12th March 2019 5:58 am
And so forgive me
If I cannot shake this,
If I cannot just let this go
And allow you the misery
That I cannot believe
You truly want for yourself.
Forgive me for the constant reminders,
For not just letting you be alone,
For I do not know what you want now
But I know what you believed then.
It would be a dishonor to deny
Any part of this.
And so again, forgive me
Because I ca...
Tuesday 12th March 2019 5:54 am
I have no way of telling you
That I am so, so sorry
For ever questioning you,
For ever wondering,
For ever doubting;
For I see so clearly now
What seemed so cloudy then.
You loved me so hard
In such an unparalleled manner
For such a long time.
You said to me, if I did not see it,
You had failed me yet again.
You need to know that I see it now.
I see it. I feel it. I am so sorry.
Tuesday 12th March 2019 5:51 am
I see your reflection
Floating in the water,
I visit your memory
In mirrored glass,
The tallest tower.
I acknowledge your presence
Walking beside me,
I know you are here
When the moon hangs
In the sky.
Tuesday 12th March 2019 5:31 am
Human life is absolutely a miracle to begin with.
So when somebody says, here is a heart, it has stopped beating. Here are your tools. Fix it. Bring back life.
Where do you even begin?
Eight sets of eyes staring at me,
I have one patient, one EMT, three firemen, four policemen, one family member.
Thursday 7th March 2019 6:11 am
Is this, then, the test?
To find when there is nothing,
Something still remains?
Tuesday 5th March 2019 11:18 am
I loved him
And he loved me
Until I loved me
And he loved he.
Monday 4th March 2019 3:48 am
I did so well
For so many weeks
Am I screaming at the windshield
Yelling your name like it's my final breath
Why now am I questioning,
Remembering every little detail
Why is it torturing me,
Burning my soul, why
Does your memory haunt me
When I wake, when I sleep,
On every drive home
Is the shadow of your presence following me
Why is it mocking my every move
Saturday 2nd March 2019 5:55 am
Rule number one:
Do no harm.
Just answer me,
How could you hold
Something so fragile
In your arms for so long,
And then just shatter it?
Thursday 28th February 2019 10:51 pm
And the further I run
The less I can breathe
But remembering you
I am nearly
Out of air
Tuesday 26th February 2019 10:19 pm
I used to hope you were doing okay.
Now I don't.
Now I hope you're fucking feeling it.
You see, my biggest mistake
Was loving you enough to allow you to live in complacency.
You would have stayed forever in that place of safety.
And even last week I found myself sad and hurting
Because you are sad and hurting,
But now I think, great.
Feel all of the fucking pain.
Maybe for on...
Sunday 24th February 2019 11:55 am
Now I am angry.
But that's what you wanted,
You wanted to piss me off
So much so that I would hate you,
Hate you like I said I never would.
For so long
That - kept me - from being angry.
Or maybe that really wasn't your reason after all,
Maybe you are a narcissistic sociopath,
Telling your goddamn lies to get what you wanted from me.
Are you fucking happy now?
Sunday 24th February 2019 11:31 am
I want you to know that I don't want to do this.
I want you to know that I never wanted it to be this way.
That I loved you with all of my heart.
That I would hold on forever if you let me.
But it has become painstaking clear
That I am holding on to something that is already long gone.
I cannot keep watching, waiting, listening
For a sound I will not hear, a time that will not come;
Thursday 21st February 2019 2:37 am
I saw you last night
Again in my dreams
We smiled and we hugged
And you held me but brief,
And when she called out for you,
I started to leave.
A few steps toward the door
But my soul turned around.
My body soon followed
Whilst your eyes searched the ground.
Wait, I demanded,
You don't understand
What you're throwing away
By not taking my hand.
Could you not feel the ...
Thursday 7th February 2019 10:52 am
If you have to hide,
Why can we not hide
In each other?
Saturday 2nd February 2019 11:20 pm
Every night, these dreams haunt me
But I must concede,
It is better to be haunted
And to see your face
Than to sleep without you
And to rest in peace.
Saturday 2nd February 2019 11:25 am
Take off your blindfold.
Although the darkness is familiar,
It is no place in which to spend your life.
Covering your eyes
May mask you from the rest of the world,
But it will not hide you from yourself.
The light will get through,
Saturday 26th January 2019 8:23 pm
No longer will I say
You did this to me.
For the rest of the world,
I will be strong.
I will be kind.
I will be present.
I will be compassionate.
I will be understanding.
I will be empathetic.
I will be courageous.
I will be intuitive.
I will be brave.
I will be everything
That you couldn't be
For me -
You did NOT
For the rest of the w...
Saturday 19th January 2019 2:29 pm
Please forgive me.
I have been hurt recently
And the wound is still fresh,
Raw, and bleeding.
But you should know that,
For it was you
Who tied my tourniquet.
But still I will love you
With all that I have left
Until the light burns out.
Thursday 17th January 2019 1:01 pm
He took a baseball bat to her heart
With complete disregard for her dreams;
He shattered her soul.
And when she looked up through broken glass
Night had turned to day again -
And the sky
Tuesday 15th January 2019 9:54 pm
Are filling in these empty holes
Oh so fast.
Have no idea
How much I need that right now.
Monday 14th January 2019 4:28 am
"You dropped this."
He picked up her heart
Holding it ever so gently,
And stretched his hand out toward her.
"No, I didn't.
I threw it away on purpose."
He asked simply.
"It is broken."
He pulled a bandage from his pocket.
His arm outstretched toward her once again,
"It is fixed."
Saturday 12th January 2019 3:13 am
I have tried
For so long
I understand now.
Do I understand now.
Monday 7th January 2019 6:35 am
Have been a bandage for me;
For my heart was broken recently.
And for that, my dear,
I thank you
Sunday 6th January 2019 10:03 am
Why, you ask me,
Why did you come back
To this place?
Come back? You don't understand.
I never left.
The people; I answer you,
Holding back thoughts and memories,
Afraid of showing just how much
Meaning You, and the others,
Have impacted my life.
I looked at the skyline again tonight,
The same skyline I stared at on my final call with...
Sunday 6th January 2019 9:56 am
I don't know how you could say you loved me like you did,
And then go on to break my heart like this.
I guess it was always me, loving you, after all,
Saturday 5th January 2019 7:31 am