Poetry Blog by Collin Pulmano
on Hot Springs (Sat, 4 Aug 2018 08:48 am)
Arun karan on I just got finished reading a very depressing comments thread on Facebook..... So it's probably time to stop.... (Mon, 16 Jul 2018 07:49 am)
on Some people just don't know how to enjoy being sick... (Sat, 30 Jun 2018 08:00 am)
on Including Sue (Thu, 28 Jun 2018 07:52 am)
Anya on Green Grass (Tue, 15 May 2018 09:38 pm)
I've been asking myself a question, lately
About what it is that I want
Because when I look inside myself
I see no aspirations of fame
No want for success
Instead I see the plates of food I fixed
The worn pages of books I've read
I see a bright day and tall clouds
The wind blowing the pollen
The sunlight cutting through
I see trees gnarled and thick, muddy paths...
Friday 15th March 2019 4:57 pm
I have everything just right in my hand
Everything I've ever had
And I just don't want to be who my parents were
I don't want to know the mistakes and still make them
This is that time where time is giving me a grin
Superficial and evil and fun and filled
With the thought of endless happiness
If only I fall
Fail and believe
The tempting of the dream
The dream that...
Tuesday 5th February 2019 1:43 am
So today I'm trying not
To be overzealously mean
I'm working on my politeness
My acceptance of irritable behavior
My unreasonable expectations
They only make me angry
And I hate being angry
It causes me to attack
and attack and attack
relentlessly and cruelly
attack and attack
All my frustration and violence
Depression piling in my chest
It's giving me pnuem...
Thursday 6th September 2018 2:44 am
If I ever talk my way down
I know I'll land
on soft ground, slightly bleeding
The world is grumbling
and my eyes see a beauty long imagined
to be perfect yet is so far now
the lives hiding the flaws
I wonder if I'll ever see those rolling hills
the moss so ancient begging for the sea
and the meat in the pot
a sizzling stew
and they are burdened by the hue of a sk...
Tuesday 4th September 2018 5:26 am
Things smell so good
It's my happiness and they all
lay down ready for bed
my eyes are definitely read
and the distortion is continuous
I feel so helpless when it is not right
and water, I dream of water
around, surround, steaming out in clouds
and your eyes
flourescent in the light
your smile a bared bit of intensi...
Tuesday 4th September 2018 5:14 am
It's blurry most times, my
bitter memories of a lonely
childhood on a leash my
head hung up on being loved
and accepted by anyone that
I never questioned
the world around me only
listened to the summary then
upon my realization of an
my burdens not real, fabricated
I'm out and not squashed
and hated these words with
not but still they ...
Tuesday 28th August 2018 9:20 pm
My wine glass doesn't fit in the cup holder
My happy meal has the same old toy
I thought I was ok with older
But I'm devastated
Sarcasm was your art
Your heart so much bigger
Than the best fed panther in the park
There's no missing
You're always here
I have every crackling word
Every growling laugh
Every smarmy sweater
Every holiday passed
Saturday 4th August 2018 3:37 am
My frustration never ends
It butts in like a question
And Tuesdays are so blind
To my hopeless, heedless mind
I want to fall
Into your endless, open
Wall of discomfort
Front seat never looked inviting
But I enjoyed the thought
Of sitting there anyway
I don't want to stand in front
I wanna catch it on fire
There's no show I want to see
Or be I j...
Thursday 5th July 2018 12:38 am
Not thinking is fun
It makes me a bum
I like to be a bum
A bum having fun
Ergh, oooh, errr, umhrm
I'm not mad
Because I don't care
The world spins
Money is spent
The world has a dent
I do not care
You're only in trouble if you think you are
You're only a failure if you think you are
I'm gonna think I'm in the clouds
Saturday 30th June 2018 7:30 am
All they want is me
In this late, slow morning
Dim and cool and simple
The lights off and show running
It's enough, always enough
And that should keep me good
So all I need is to ignore those things
Attacking outside my door
Saturday 30th June 2018 7:23 am
Zen zen breathe breathe
I'm supposed to see the flow and chill
The maker makes the writer fails
I'm supposed to let that go as well
I want nothing and nothing will still
Chase me down and bite my heels
If I'm wrong, I'm wrong and wrong is but
Nothing if nothing is always a rut
So I can just wait it out
Let my heart beat and shout
And hopefully quickly burn itself out...
Wednesday 27th June 2018 9:41 pm
It burns again this time too deep
And in it the angry grows and steeps
It controls the mind and makes it worn
And with each corrosion of my sanity
With every severed sinew of logic
The fear churns into a thickening layer
That snaps back quicker
I want to let it go
To let the anger flow
Through my shoulders and down to my toes
To the groun...
Wednesday 27th June 2018 9:28 pm
What can I say that doesn't have fangs
Dripping poison on open wounds
Pain put in the simplest sense
Torturing myself to make amends
What can I say?
What can I say?
Nothing will make it go away
It returns a torrential rain
Pounding inside of me
A feeling I'm helpless
Staring at myself I get the shock
How long life is
How short th...
Tuesday 15th May 2018 5:21 pm
The heat is back
Thick and furious
A sea of uncomfortable pressure
An atmosphere of humid torture
It thrives on energy farmed from bodies
Tugging our bones through our skin.
In spring it is so gentle
A friend gone for a while
But back and just as charming
As they ever were in the past
But with familiarity breeds the discomfort
Of growing suffocation and untended ne...
Tuesday 15th May 2018 2:24 am
The clover is blooming
Like blood in the hills
Hungry beauty of summer
Its early impatient pace
I have the thought
That these routines are breaking
That not so far from now I'll have
a different best time
Because this early sweet
Late lazy spring
Will have drastic changes
No borders between extremes
I want this forever yet that is insane
This forward movemen...
Friday 20th April 2018 9:56 pm
Hey, now, it has happened so fast
Slowly over the years slipping through the past
All of us now assigned, all of us concerned
With the everyday of all day of working so hard
Because we have to move, move, move,
We have to make those ends
We have to make sure we're not looked down on
So we spend all of our time
So we can buy all the trends
So our children can learn...
Friday 13th April 2018 2:10 am
And the line from that song is my reassurance in life
That all is ok and alright and live now
and then I just watch as unbidden
I spiral back around and then I'm lost and then I'm here
Can't I just go just let go just calm down
Can't I just watch and listen and live in my round
And here it is, my mind is just unsound
Burdened by my future that is running afoul
It's not a ...
Sunday 8th April 2018 1:05 am
My mind is in the mud.
My mind is in the swirling vortex of unfortunate depression due to the realization that the world needs to be put in the corner.
I wish my species would graduate, instead of lounging around seventh grade. Petty arrogance and grievances and arguments over place.
Dictatorship never seemed so reasonable. Just listen to Cassandra.
Don't kill. Don't judge. ...
Monday 12th February 2018 4:51 am
I realized today that realizing my dreams
Means very, very different things
Than when I was young and in my head
and there was glory and fame and awards
The older I get the more I feel
that Jimmy was right and hearts are hard to find
and that those up top are as human as me
And with their advantages come other things
That get in the way of what I have
I want to hold it...
Wednesday 24th January 2018 11:50 pm
So, what the hell are we all supposed to do? Well.... nothing. Not do a single friggin' thing. Because thinking that we are all out to get each other only makes us want to get at each other. Stop worrying, and start appreciating. That's the only way out of this mess. Care more about other people than yourself. Stop taking everything personally. Stop believing politicians. Stop buying boxed ...
Thursday 18th January 2018 2:19 am
I see it close it is going to happen and all the while I will let it go for trying to stop it will roll over me and all of myself will fall and down in through depths of pain and pulling up out and now and again I will fight to push back up through the weight that holds my knees locked away until I will no longer serve a purpose that is a mistake to reach I have to resist and find out why and why ...
Wednesday 13th December 2017 2:12 am
In my morning not so early
I find still the house is quiet
My dreams are washed away for all their violence
The film before perhaps but also the news
Do triggers even matter
And my daughter asks why they always have to make the endings so sad
My smile reflects
Because that is how life is sometimes
Do we not have hope
Is there nothing to look forward to except the end...
Thursday 30th November 2017 4:04 pm
I just got finished reading a very depressing comments thread on Facebook..... So it's probably time to stop....
I chose to delete once before
But decided to try again
Social media seems so much more interesting
Than endless rounds of freecell
But between every post of a friend
Is a reminder of the world and how it ends
Of all the evil and rudeness and sin
Decadent glory of our own destruction
So I'm thinking of deleting again
But of course I could just soldier on
Sunday 24th September 2017 5:06 am
I guess I'm older now, though I'm not sure it means as much as it used to. Now it just means death is closer when it used to mean my life was over and once it meant it had almost begun. Age is something I'm learning to ignore. A useless outward ticking off of calendar days. There are benefits of the mind that accent the yang of the process, and I like my stripe of grey. I think I'm handling it ...
Saturday 16th September 2017 5:12 am
Watching the dark turn to purple, pink, then light
Waiting is not as bad with this perspective in mind
Of course an easy route would take away the time
But here we are and we're okay I think you'll be just fine
Wednesday 12th July 2017 11:38 am
The music plays as we travel
And again I see them dancing in my mind
Am I them and are they me
Or like the joke you told does it matter
I just see them swirl in the dark
Their scarves trailing and arms flying
The notes guiding and rhythms timing
Oh I dance in my mind so much
And out of it as long as no one is watching
And the tune fills my blood so rich with want
Thursday 11th May 2017 4:07 am
This isn't really poetry
This is me trying to not fall
Trying to convince myself that my mistake
Will one day mean nothing at all
But right now all I want is darkness
To take away my sight
Because in my eyes is her pretty fur
And I can still feel
Her warmth and gentle weight
As she used me for a cushion
And I loved her for her faith
But I've killed her
I feel it...
Monday 17th April 2017 5:39 am
The beauty of the neighborhood would only be strengthened
By the sound of the laughter of the children whose clothes are hanging
Drying and soaking up air and sunlight
Gently swaying in soft air
I'm dreaming of laying on their bright grass
Stretched out and purring between the blades
I'd hope they would not think it strange
When I say
Red doors hold such beauty
Thursday 9th March 2017 5:30 pm
As I walk through the woods I spy The very center of my bitter eye I fight it uselessly Wishing its death I move it gently Spying its breath Hold me, forest, with your wide green arms Tell me my lies with sweet, gentle whistles I am good, I swear, only here to please But the fun is so fun and only a tease Bring me closer to mother in the dirt Let me hide this miserable mirth I cry beca...
Sunday 24th July 2016 3:58 pm
So, you realize that everything is falling downhill
You realize you are helpless and bound by the shackles of society
You realize that you spend your time
So you can spend money
So you can waste your time
That while all of this distracts you
Children are being tortured and killed
Families are being ripped apart
Violence pervades both in reality and in entertainment
Friday 4th December 2015 4:17 pm
I feel it is a pressure inside me.
Eating me away.
And what is it for but man made hubris.
Proving I know the rules of the game.
If I can not care anymore.
If I can act like it is fleeting.
I can win over my despair.
I can believe all things will clear.
It is an illusion.
One so grand.
To help so few but then,
also to burden
So many with care....
Wednesday 28th October 2015 4:07 pm
The time has come when my sweaters don't seem so strange.
I appreciate this time greatly.
My littlelest boy in his tiny, long-sleeved frog pajamas.
My littlelest girl in her plaid and sweatshirt.
In my mind that song plays over and over.
The leaves fall in the sound.
My happiness returns with the colder weather.
My anticipation of excitement expounds.
They in their war...
Thursday 1st October 2015 7:29 pm
Writing first to feel the void
Made by my lately lack of choice
Mind numbing bitters bought and mailed
I tell myself I am different
Yet I keep participating in the soulless temptations
I tell myself I can do it
And yet here I sit sugary and sedentary
What's the point in this
To keep trying I guess
Maybe at the end I'll see the best
How I wanted and worked to make it b...
Wednesday 2nd September 2015 5:32 am
Expect me to show and not really do anything,
Cuz' my job is just to be obnoxious.
I won't add just cheer and throw glitter.
So don't act like I'm supposed to matter.
What in the world is the point of making a living.
All it is does is bring me down.
I don't want to follow the rules on the paper.
I wanna' rip them apart and burn them to ash.
Look, over there, I see al...
Tuesday 18th August 2015 7:10 pm
I'm burning just like the song said I would.
I hold you in high regard.
I want this to be the end and the all.
And so far I've gotten what I want.
But misery is just like a habit.
And I wear it every day with my earrings.
They say it all will pass,
but never tell you when.
How frustrating is it then.
Comforted by clucking hens.
I want you. I want you.
Monday 17th August 2015 10:55 pm
I found out yesterday that all this time
I've wasted my focus on things I am not
For I am a poet however unorthodox and unsound
I am a poet, whether I want it or not
So yesterday I began to write
My words in short phrases and lines
I ignored punctuation and laughed at rhymes
I made a point to trust my mind
Now I know, bad poet or not,
A poet I am for better or...
Saturday 1st August 2015 12:01 am
Islands below of eternal wishes
Held by the bounds of the damned
Aching hearts bleeding and building in layers
Despair the piles upon piles of naught
What bitter thoughts trip into the air
Twisting and lighting in chemical flair
And I am just an observer
Condemned to be by my dreams
Cross-legged on the boating ramp
Falling into the sea
Their eyes are so round and...
Friday 31st July 2015 11:56 pm
Anger unfiltered and unfettered and stark;
Black little words against the bright white dark.
Recesses of the corners of so many rooms
and posted again and about in the gloom.
I have no worries because I can't be found.
I have no qualms releasing the hounds,
no matter how deadly and bitter and bleak.
I am here to feed off the weak.
I am the ether that consumes your...
Friday 31st July 2015 1:54 am
My little girl likes to be hugged more than you
She enjoys lack of space
She likes to paint herself
And twirl with grace
But giggles madly
And shows her worst face
My little girl likes to smile
And bat her eyes like a pro
She knows her sister's sadness
She knows her little brother's madness
She knows how to make us all smile
She knows she's the sweetest of all
Wednesday 29th July 2015 5:16 am