Poetry Blog by Charlotte Thomas-Rowe
on Volume (Mon, 29 Apr 2019 12:55 am)
Big Sal on 14/12/1994 (Fri, 14 Dec 2018 12:47 pm)
A sense of belonging that’s foreign to me
To be able to feel the warmth of love would bring a sense of glee
But anyone I’ve grown close to seems to flee.
Left tortured with abandonment creating emotional ripples.
All while leaving my heart warped and feeling brittle.
Losing hope in my dear Lord little by little.
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Tuesday 14th May 2019 9:59 pm
The weight of my sorrows no man can lift,
The size of my heart which is starting to shift.
The heights of anxiety make me manic,
The lengths I would go to cure these panics.
My emotions are at full capacity,
Trying to decipher happiness’ anatomy.
My soul harbours in a forlorn dimension,
Awaiting a celestial beings guided ascension.
Thursday 25th April 2019 10:36 am
Here is to another year of life,
Should I be buoyant and forget these years of strife?
See my demons are growing more mature,
And I'm still suffering and no closer to a cure.
24 years of carrying this unbearable pain inside,
But today I'll show the world I'm happy and ride this temporary tide.
So happy birthday to me,
I hope these messages from back home bring a sourc...
Friday 14th December 2018 1:05 am
Dreams play hide-and-seek,
Thoughts trying to catch my sleep
Caught, but nightmares creep.
* Photo from: https://www.desktopbackground.org/wallpaper/akumu-yume-nikki-by-jcm2-on-deviantart-571911
* 悪夢 / Akumu means nightmare in Japanese - also a Haiku to reflect on insomnia
Saturday 17th November 2018 2:07 am
She is fire,
Get close and she will melt your heart,
The light in your darkest hour
But play with her and you'll get burnt.
She is earth,
Her roots rich with self-love and worth,
The natural evolution females seek
But mess with her nature, she'll bring forth her seismic wrath.
She is air,
Free and not confined,
Moves like the wind and her path knows no limits
Saturday 10th November 2018 12:51 pm
Are you there?
I pray to you each and every night in despair,
Yet they remain unanswered as if you do not care.
I sink solely in my thoughts,
As heartache floods through my veins.
Suffocating and feeling distraught,
Trapped and stuck in these emotional chains.
My life has come to that of which only you can intervene.
My soul is no longer at peace (and you’re o...
Sunday 16th September 2018 5:31 pm
He lit mi corazón like wildfire,
It ignited something within.
I feel this burning desire,
Whenever I’m with him.
Loco con lujuria now i’m addicted,
And me encanta the taste of his skin.
But we are always restricted,
thus I’m conflicted, is this actually a grave sin?
* Loco con lujuria - Crazy with lust
* Corazón - Heart
Tuesday 4th September 2018 11:31 am
My heart skips a beat when I catch you glancing.
I’m high on you, your mental is alluringly entrancing.
I lose my consciousness in your world; now hooked on your being.
Whilst pheromones run wild, you advance, begin by playfully teasing.
I analyse your face.
Slowly you undress me before you go to third base.
Your tongues tender touch hits th...
Wednesday 22nd August 2018 1:33 pm
Thoughts of failure,
Searching for some inner strength.
Spiralling, as emotions start feeling tense.
(Why can’t anyone see she’s broken and needs someone to save her?)
As her skin grows paler,
State of mind fades frailer,
Followed by the random outburst of erratic “unexplainable” behaviour.
She never quite found her saviour, hope gone so she finally picked up t...
Saturday 12th May 2018 1:28 pm
Her universe was split into a mass of struggles and compressed emotions within an sunken space.
The collisions of depression and anxiety grew stronger forming dark energy made up of misery; it’s high density crushed happiness quicker than the speed of light.
There were once stars in her eyes, shone brighter than any quasars, but it burned away creating the black hole in her b...
Monday 9th April 2018 8:18 pm
My love is a two-edged weapon, wielded by insecurity and sharpened with fear.
Akin to Pandora’s pithos, it remained concealed; destruction would only come of openly sharing it to the outside world.
My heart is shielded, once scarred by mistrust, now a lone vessel playing a broken melody looped:
Just as soldiers march through wet trenches in perf...
Friday 16th February 2018 1:26 pm
You leave me lost for words even when my thoughts aren’t pacing.
I just want you to call me mi amor, grab me, then have my heart racing.
Though often I wonder, is it unrequited love that I am chasing?
But I would risk it all for you — even spend an eternity waiting.
Side note: 愛 means love in Japanese
Sunday 7th January 2018 8:33 pm
I let you all down
I let myself down
Now it’s time to go
Time let my thoughts d
Monday 6th November 2017 9:42 am
To be positive is to be naïve,
I may see the world negative, but it's better than the fake fairy tale you perceive.
I see the raw in the well done,
I see the pain in the fun,
through my pessimistic eyes I even see the wet rain and storm in the sun.
This perspective avoids disappointment.
Viewing the world as troubled and not worth saving is my ointment.
Wednesday 12th July 2017 9:26 pm
The girl who iced her emotions.
Her physical and mental being out of motion.
A coldness within her grew,
induced by solitude and failure.
Sadness flowed through her veins, thus only
As her tears fell like snow, weathered by
Because everything she once cared for let her
down, and people wonder why she carries a
Monday 10th July 2017 8:06 pm
A warmth in her blossomed,
He made her smile from her heart.
She was too scared to tell him,
So she played the friendship part.
An unknown feeling flourished within,
Her guard unfolded and withered.
He stole her affection like a thief at night,
Replaced with emotions she tried to fight.
The attraction stemmed deeper,
She knew he was a keeper.
Sunday 2nd July 2017 5:11 pm
She let anger consume her heart,
Rage and love was not far apart.
All emotions bottled up inside,
Hence why she couldn't confide.
Fury itself could not compete with her,
Madness just continued to stir.
Wrath didn't say a word,
But temper suddenly spurred.
A darkness clouded her whole being,
Realising her whole life had no meaning.
Praying one last time t...
Saturday 1st July 2017 7:27 pm
I know it's her fault,
shouldn't of worn that short skirt.
You can't make out her words,
because she speaks slurred.
They're antithetical to her actions,
you think of your own self satisfaction:
"I'll take her no for a yes
because I know what's best."
Desires override your humanity,
whispering in her ears profanities.
You go against her wishes,
stain her purity ...
Saturday 1st July 2017 9:59 am