Poetry Blog by Charlotte Bergman

Twisted circus

When a mother has a son 

She's supposed to be the boss 

Teach him how to be respectful 

So in life he isn't lost 

However in their family circle 

He's the one who's in control

And she allows him to be in charge

Though he's just 19 years old

A woman in her late forties 

Should not be treated this way by 

Her son that manipulates her 

You're scared of him don't lie

...

Read and leave comments (1)

🌷 (1)

Tainted memories

You actually scare me 

You believe your own lies

And I'm still hung Up on it

I'm not good at goodbyes 

And it's so infuriating

That you throw on this act 

But you lied about me 

How did you think I'd react? 

See when a friendship ends

And you thought that it couldn't 

A friendship that was strong 

A friendship that shouldn't 

A friendship based on lies

Deceit...

Read and leave comments (1)

🌷 (3)

When you're in love

Isn't it beautiful 

The stars on a cool night 

Isn't it breathtaking 

The first glimpse of sunlight 

I wouldn't know anymore 

Because no matter what I do 

Despite the beautiful view

The only thing i see is you 

It's been a while for me 

So I thank the people above 

Because everything is beautiful 

When you know you're in love 

Charlotte

Read and leave comments (1)

Tyler; honey i don't care

Do you think i'm worried?
with you looking at me like that 
i didn't know you were working today
i'm not that much of a twat 
stop looking up at me 
i honestly don't care 
i'm just messaging the girls 
taking the piss out of your hair 
seriously i'm not bothered by you 
i'm watching the kids have fun 
why are you feeling smug? 
no way to treat your child's mum.
No he isn't here anymore...

Read and leave comments (2)

🌷 (1)

Autumn Leaves

Autumn it is beautiful 
it is my favourite season 
the colours are just breathtaking 
but that's not my only reason 
the colder days the darker nights 
whether you're fifty or your five 
when you feel the autumn breeze 
you can't help but feel alive 
i look up at the misty sky 
and the forever changing trees 
and i close my eyes and feel at peace 
when i feel that autumn breeze 
the le...

Read and leave comments (4)

🌷 (4)

Penny thoughts

My writing is my therapy 
it really helps me cope
maybe one day i'll be discovered
all i can do is hope
i know there nothing special 
after all i'm just 19
but typing up a poem 
is better than a scream 
poetry is beautiful 
it doesn't have to make sense
ill write about what i like
i don't care if you take offence 
my poems are my deepest thoughts
my secrets that i write 
i'm in love ...

Read and leave comments (0)

🌷 (1)

Two faced

you never really loved my uncle 
you just used him for his money 
but don't you threaten my mother 
now listen closely honey 
we love your children dearly 
we just cannot stand you 
you're calling us two faced
but your lies we see right through 
if you're going to leave my uncle 
i suggest you do it fast 
he might be hurting for a bit 
but i know his pain won't last
you've been out of ...

Read and leave comments (0)

🌷 (2)

Sickly smile

Can i ask why you were smug 
when you saw me the other day 
can i ask why you looked sly 
pleased with yourself in a sick way 
can i ask why you don't see 
all the wrong that you have done 
saying you nearly lost tyler
when i actually did lose my son. 
- Charlotte 

 

Read and leave comments (0)

Mental health

So this next poem is rather different to my usual stuff. The rhymes aren't the best and there isn't much flow, however i've just written this as i come down from a panic attack. Depression and mental health are still some sort of taboo subject in our society and there are so many people that feel they can't talk about it, myself included. Tonight i had a horrendous panic attack as recently my depr...

Read and leave comments (3)

🌷 (2)

Justine. A cry for help.

Right okay i'm calming down now 
and all i really want to do 
is to type in your number 
and start to message you 
but i know there's not enough words
to describe how i really feel
but i know if i don't speak to you
i'm never going to heal 
justine i do not hate you 
and i know i never could 
i wish that you would listen
but i know you never would 
all i want is just an hour 
to sit p...

Read and leave comments (2)

🌷 (1)

Lighthouse

I've never felt this way before
this is a different kind of care
if i'm hurt or lost my way 
i just look and he is there
he's become my other half
my best friend at the same time 
i'm so happy that this happened
and that i can call him mine
we've been friends for so long 
but it turned into something else
he makes me smile every day
and he's helped me find myself
when it started i was ...

Read and leave comments (3)

🌷 (3)

A run in with a liar

a little more light hearted 
but yet again about you 
because you won't leave my head
no matter what i try to do 
i didnt think i'd get so upset
if i ran into you outside 
i didn't think it would hurt me 
until i left the shop and cried 
but i didn't cry because i miss you
please don't flatter yourself so 
tonight just made me realize 
something you really ought to know 
i thought i'd ...

Read and leave comments (2)

🌷 (1)

Fallen Angel

I think it's getting easier 
ill talk about it if i must 
and though my smile is returning 
the thing that won't is trust
you wear a stupid front 
you wear a mask like a clown 
and there's one thing i'm tired of
and that's you letting me down 
i thought you were a hero 
you were the one that i could call 
everybody has an angel 
but i guess mine took a fall
- Charlotte 

 

Read and leave comments (1)

🌷 (4)

Something i want to say

Justine if you are reading these
There's something i want to say 
how is it that you don't care
but you cross my mind everyday 
do you every wonder how i'm doing 
if you said yes you would be lying 
and i can't say that i'm okay 
because while i write this i am crying 
i know now why you lied to me 
and helped me to get things sorted
because if you hadn't put up that front
i would never...

Read and leave comments (0)

🌷 (3)

You'll never know

You'll never know how much i've cried
since that dreadful night 
you'll never know how much i've thought
i should give up the fight
you'll never know how much it hurts
that you could just not care 
you'll never know sometimes the pain 
is just too much to bare 
you'll never know there's not a day 
that you haven't crossed my mind 
you'll never know how much i pray 
that peace one day i'...

Read and leave comments (0)

🌷 (1)

SOS

and i'm back now at square one
but now worse than before 
i'm scratching my skin and crying 
i don't want this anymore 
i miss her but i hate her 
and i want to scream and shout 
they will all be better off 
if i give up and check out 

-Charlotte

 

Read and leave comments (0)

🌷 (1)

2 names

I wish id never met you 
i wish our paths had never crossed 
You used to make me feel found 
and now i just feel lost
you've made me lose my head
you've made me lose mind 
you're just an evil toxic shell
you made me think you were kind 
you really are a monster 
every day you make me cry 
if i could meet you from the start 
i'd turn around and say goodbye 
i wish i'd never met you 
yo...

Read and leave comments (1)

🌷 (1)

My little secret

My little secret 
safe and warm 
no one will touch you 
or cause you harm 
i won't let her find you 
i promise my dear 
she won't go near you 
you have nothing to fear 
she thinks she is clever 
by calling her friend 
but you were born private 
and this war must end 
she no longer believes
that you are here
ill keep you my secret
my baby, my dear 

-Charlotte

Read and leave comments (0)

🌷 (2)

My promise to my son

this is for you my little boy 
you will always be enough 
i will shelter you when things go wrong 
when life just gets too rough 
i'm sorry daddy didn't care 
but mummy loves you so 
i promise you that every day 
ill love you and you'll know 
You can always come to me my child 
ill keep you safe and sound 
ill make us happy memories 
and lift you off the ground 
i know that i'm not per...

Read and leave comments (2)

🌷 (1)

Dear Ex Boyfriend

Remember when you took my virginity 
i remember that magical night 
i remember locking eyes with you 
and our eyes were a sight 
i saw your eye twinkle 
i thought i was blessed
until you did to me 
what you did to the rest
see you can't help yourself
you think with your dick 
you're not even special 
your shit and your quick 
but if we ignore the sex
and the fact your a whore
and foc...

Read and leave comments (0)

🌷 (2)

From me to you

Dont spoil the memory of me 
when you look back on us now 
it wasn't always hurt and pain 
try and remember some how 
our long late talks 
and listening ears 
i thought it would last
for years and years
our inside jokes
most were so daft 
how just the word goldfish
could make us both laugh 
our times of struggle
we were both there
but we helped eachother 
because we both cared
our ...

Read and leave comments (0)

Memory

I broke the habit of visiting his bed
now i need his mother out of my head
some days im angry 
i just want to shout
others i'm tearful 
and want to talk it out 
She's made me look so awful
made people think i'm cold 
i'm tired of these silly games 
they're really getting old
it's hurts more that it was easy
for her to just leave 
but i can't drop her memory
so just have to grieve 
  ...

Read and leave comments (0)

🌷 (1)

Birthday dance

19 years to the day 
that i took my first breath
since then i've done quite well i think
because i keep dodging death
today's a day to celebrate 
because i achieved this goal 
they told me i wouldn't see 19 
And to me, 19 is old
Today's a day to smile and laugh
while your friends gather around 
and even though you're really happy
you keep looking at the ground
every couple hours you ch...

Read and leave comments (0)

Vessel

We're officially moved in now 
i look around at the place 
sat in my new room
hot tears down my face 
my boyfriend dropped me home
and we had  a good time 
 while sat with him and his mum 
sharing a bottle of wine 
his family are so loving 
they make me feel whole 
they're putting back the broken pieces
that you selfishly stole
Tyler, i feel sorry for you 
in your bedroom all alone
i...

Read and leave comments (2)

🌷 (3)

My chosen family

i get the bus at around 8
from this house it takes a while
and when i walk through those doors
i don't need to fake a smile 
i hated school both small and big
i just didn't fit in 
but while i'm with my college peers
i just can't help but grin
i look around the room at them
and i sigh in disbelief 
we've done so much already 
shared happiness and grief 
we've become a family unit now 
...

Read and leave comments (0)

Justine: The final chapter

i know fine well she told you 
i know fine well you know 
i know that she reached out to you
i know, she told me so 
i know you know what i do 
every day that i come home 
and drive towards the hospital 
for a couple hours alone 
i cannot bring him home yet 
he's weak and oh so small
do i tell him in the future 
that gigi didn't care at all? 
are you enjoying all the sympathy 
saying ...

Read and leave comments (0)

Justine Part 3

you told me i could trust you 
told me it would be alright
you told me you'd be there for me
and not to give up the fight
you told me you would be there
you told me i wasn't alone
you made me tell you everything
then you dropped me like a stone
you told me that you cared for me
you said that we were friends
you made me believe everything 
until it all came to an end
do you remember how...

Read and leave comments (0)

GiGi

I never got to meet you 
But i know you very well
From all the times you helped my mum 
You were loving, i could tell 
I wondered what you looked like 
As you hugged tightly to my mum 
I knew that you'd be fabulous 
And that we'd have lots of fun 
Sometimes i missed your warm hugs
When my mum would start to cry 
And when you hugged us i felt better
I couldn't understand why 
And i felt...

Read and leave comments (1)

🌷 (1)

The room

a girl sits alone in silence
she starts picking at her thumb 
she's not sure how she's supposed to feel
her fear has made her numb
they take her into a colder room 
and put her in a gown 
the nurses words spoke cold and harsh 
"stop moving and lay down!"
she ends up in a metal tube 
the noises make her scared 
she closes her eyes and imagines 
that someone she loves is there
the noises...

Read and leave comments (0)

Cured

You told me i could fight it through 
you told me i was strong 
i tried real hard but could not see 
but you saw all along 
you saw a strength i didn't feel
or know i had inside 
you made sure you were there for me
every single time i cried
you made sure that i didn't stop 
fighting what was killing me 
you made sure i didn't forget 
the things that made me, me
and now i'm here and i'm...

Read and leave comments (0)

Hope

my tears are a reminder that i'm human 
my regrets remind me of what i've done
my thoughts remind me that i'm still me
my scars are a reminder of what i've overcome 
my friends are a reminder that i am loved 
my demons remind me that i can sin 
my messages remind me that i am strong 
my past is a reminder that i can win
my words remind me that i have talent
my diary is a reminder of my pa...

Read and leave comments (0)

Cancer

When you picked me up again 
from the hospital doors 
i smiled at you with teary eyes
i could say nothing more 
i know you know it's hard for me 
and i know it's hard for you 
but please don't insist that i fight 
when there's nothing i can do 
if this is going to take my life
next week, month or today 
please know that i'll welcome death 
to take my pain away
i know you know i'm hurti...

Read and leave comments (0)

Justine Part 2

some heroes wear capes 
my hero wears black 
some heroes wear heels
my hero wears flats
some heroes are bulky 
muscles beyond compare
my hero is slim 
she's kind gentle and fair 
some heroes can smash things
and some heroes can fly 
my hero tells me to fight
and gives me reasons why 
some heroes are scary 
some heroes can run
my hero is loving 
and a single mum 
some heroes can jum...

Read and leave comments (0)

The ungodly routine

Once a day i sit here
on this space on my floor
once a day i run upstairs 
and lean against the door
once a day my body freezes
and my minds just turns to black 
once a day i cry and mourn
and beg for myself back 
once a day it's like routine
my head goes in my hands 
once a day i distract myself 
with the things that i have planned 
once a day i cry and sob 
and i rock and breathe to...

Read and leave comments (0)

5 Hearts Part 2

I wrote 5 hearts for all of you that i hold close to my heart and this one may be similar i don't know how else to start It seems lately that arll i feel is pain anger or regret and i write all of these poems so that i will not forget it's not that i want to remember the pain when i am old it's so that when my heart is warm i know i beat the cold but fighting off this cold right now would be impos...

Read and leave comments (0)

Bit by Bit


she dropped me home this morning
and i acted okay 
and then i looked out the window
to made sure she'd gone away
i sat outside alone and cold
and the cigarette i lit
and as i sat alone again 
it suddenly hit
i paced the garden
and i tried to fight 
it was late morning 
why did i feel like night
what have i done 
why am did i do it 
i'm slowly killing myself
bit by fucking bit
   ...

Read and leave comments (0)

The Mistake

As i feel them leave 
my body goes still
nobody can ever know
and nobody ever will
what do i  say i want?
i say i want a friend 
what do i really want?
i want for it to end
I said i'd never end my life
if i had a life inside me
but now that i don't
can' set myself free?
   -Charlotte 

 

Read and leave comments (0)

Justine

I can't believe it's like this
it's happening again
once again you have to be 
my one and only friend
the only one to help me
the one to make me see
the one to make me realise 
there's people here for me
once again you're having too 
hold my hand and dry my eye
once again you're going to have to 
hold me while i cry
Once again we'll drive back 
from the road we know too well
once aga...

Read and leave comments (0)

The Blame Game

If you pretend to know 
why i react the way i do 
it isn't because i was mad
she didn't leave you 
if i wanted her to leave 
and for you to be in pain 
who would that make me
what would i gain?
See believe what you want
and call me a cow 
but don't think for me 
it's easier somehow ? 
you say i wanted her to leave
and i wanted you to cry 
but if that was the case
why for you did i w...

Read and leave comments (0)

Misunderstood

how can i i tell you the truth 
when the truth will make you cry 
And even if i tell you the truth 
you'll accuse it of a lie 
what more do you want from me 
i'm already in pain 
why do you constantly accuse me 
what on earth do you gain? 
I just need a friend to hug 
and tell me it's alright 
but every time you read something 
it ends up in a fight 
i just need a friend to hold 
and ...

Read and leave comments (0)

2 Pink lines

Who's body is it 
is it mine or yours
i thought it can't be mine 
it has too many flaws 
I'm fucked up inside 
with my deadly disease  
how can this happen 
when it's killing me 
i am not healthy 
and yet once more 
i look at those lines 
and i drop to the floor
why is it me again 
is this a blessing 
i scratch at my wrist 
that is bandaged with dressing 
for i know what he'll say 
...

Read and leave comments (0)

Goodnight Kiss

Keep telling me i'm not insane
keep telling me you care 
keep telling me that no matter what 
i'm hurting you'll be there
keep telling me you never lied 
and that you never took the piss
do what you want to my heart and mind 
but don't steal with me a kiss
keep telling me you are my friend 
and that you know it's risky 
but don't lay by my side on a night 
and then turn around and kiss ...

Read and leave comments (0)

Demons

Here it is now
my demons back to play 
i wish he'd leave me be 
for just one fucking day 
i fight demons all the time 
they're always in my head
but this one comes and sees me
when i'm alone in bed
i can ignore the others
for just a little while
but this one causes so much pain 
and then it makes him smile 
the others tell me what i do 
is wrong in every way 
and the others only play...

Read and leave comments (0)

Her lost son Part 2

He used to look up at you 
with eyes full of love
and now you look up at him
and think "why aren't i enough"
you used to read him stories 
and he used to make you smile 
he used to spend real time with you
he hasn't in a while 
and i know you used to dream about
the adventures you would share 
you didn't think a time would come 
when you didn't think he cared
you wonder if he knows abo...

Read and leave comments (0)

Lost


I know you want me to talk 
and you want me to fight 
but when i feel my lowest 
it's not a pretty sight 
i become a different person 
and i just feel so alone 
and it takes everything in me
not to pick up my phone 
See i want to dial your number 
and beg you to help me through 
but it cripples me the thought that
i may be annoying you 
see when i'm down and all alone 
my demons sta...

Read and leave comments (0)

5 Hearts

My life is rather complicated 
it's split into 5 parts
i don't mean places or objects
i mean its split into 5 hearts
The first the one that loves me so
and has helped me grow in time
the woman i love more than words
the heart that gave me mine
she struggles more than she will say 
but every day she sings
she hums away the heartache 
i know every day brings 
she hides behind her boister...

Read and leave comments (0)

Her lost son

You can try to hide it 
but it doesn't do any good
i can see you reminiscing 
about his faded childhood 
when he used to run to you
and kiss you on the cheek 
now he doesn't even lift you 
when you're feeling weak 
you dream about the good times 
when he'd cuddle you with warmth 
before he made you ask 
who are you anymore 
you miss the times when things were good
and the house was fu...

Read and leave comments (0)

The Class Clown

I'm good at making jokes 
and making other people laugh 
i like to act silly 
and make others think i'm daft 
i'm good at well times sarcasm 
i was always the class clown 
and i think it's strange people don't notice 
it's to hide i'm feeling down 
see i can be very inappropriate 
i've been told this for a while 
i make jokes, rude comments and remarks 
because i like to see people smil...

Read and leave comments (0)

The breath of a fighter

sometimes i go really quiet
i dare not make a sound
The thoughts i have just creep back in 
and my heart begins to pound 
Sometimes i will remember 
how alone i really feel
the thoughts that haunt me in my head 
make it impossible to heal
and while i sit and have these thoughts 
that shake me to my core
i try to focus on my breathing 
and realise i don't want too anymore
Each breathe i...

Read and leave comments (0)

Drown

When i was falling, 
you didn't stop to catch me,
you never helped at all
you promised you would catch me 
but instead you let me fall
When i was weeping
you didn't dry my eyes 
you didn't stop me hurting 
you didn't even try 
when i felt lonely 
you didn't offer a hand 
you didn't think about me 
and now on my own i stand 
and now that i am drowning 
you won't dive in i bet 
you wi...

Read and leave comments (0)

Show more entries …

Archive

  • 2017 (51)

Recent Comments

Big Sal on Twisted circus (3 days ago)

Beno on Tainted memories (7 days ago)

andy n on When you're in love (Tue, 31 Oct 2017 12:43 pm)

Fred Varden on Fallen Angel (Sun, 29 Oct 2017 07:29 pm)

Martin Elder on Tyler; honey i don't care (Sun, 29 Oct 2017 02:22 pm)

Hannah Collins on Tyler; honey i don't care (Sat, 28 Oct 2017 10:07 pm)

Charlotte Bergman on Autumn Leaves (Fri, 27 Oct 2017 10:44 pm)

Fred Varden on Autumn Leaves (Fri, 27 Oct 2017 10:23 pm)

suki spangles on Autumn Leaves (Fri, 27 Oct 2017 03:23 pm)

Ryn on Autumn Leaves (Fri, 27 Oct 2017 02:21 pm)

Fred Varden on GiGi (Thu, 26 Oct 2017 08:11 pm)

Charlotte Bergman on My promise to my son (Thu, 26 Oct 2017 05:27 pm)

Charlotte Bergman on Mental health (Thu, 26 Oct 2017 01:34 pm)

Cynthia Buell Thomas on Mental health (Thu, 26 Oct 2017 12:15 pm)

Ryn on Mental health (Thu, 26 Oct 2017 02:10 am)

Feeds

RSS feed icon

This site uses cookies. By continuing to browse, you are agreeing to our use of cookies.

Find out more Hide this message