Poetry Blogs (2012, rejection)
After I lost you,
If I stop
You to adore
Or begin you to abhor,
I never loved
Even if I am aware
You are no longer mine
I will take that fine.
Exchanging with you
By itself is a
Monday 3rd December 2018 2:00 pm
Fall on the way side in the afternoon.
I sob now besides the hollow tree,
Your darkened hair recedes into the heavy mist,
Your eyebrows sliver into scattered sunbeams.
Away from me.
Lost in the bitter goodnight,
Hollow in acknowledgment,
The dirt moist from the heavy rain before it.
The image of you flakes,
In my mind,
Saturday 24th February 2018 6:19 am
She's always been shy
been tossed away
because of her
been hiding from
world around her
because of shyness
She's always been
unheard of because
of bad case of
She wishes that
her shyness would
disappear one day
so she will be adored
Tuesday 5th December 2017 4:05 pm
As the illusion shatters around me
As the dust melts away into reality, I realise
I realise like everytime before, this wasn't real
Everything you said to me wasn't real
Everything I felt was real
Every moment we shared I managed to translate incorrectly
Each look misjudged
Each smirk misread
Each nudge misinterpretated
'I never liked you'
'I never li...
Wednesday 26th July 2017 11:33 pm
I can smell her on you
I can see her in the wrinkles of your shirt
I can feel her on your skin
I want you to love me like her
I want you to look at me like that
I want you to feel that way about me
You don't love me
You don't see me
You don't want me
You say I am too much
You say I am not enough
You say I am not her
We won't work
We don't belong together
We aren't anything
Monday 24th July 2017 1:40 pm
I'm tired of being second best
I'm tired of being the one the world rejects
The husband wanted more so he went with the bridesmaid
& even back in primary I never got picked for the school play
Second best is a journey of progression
Always so close to the prize but then comes life's hard lessons
It seems no matter how much you want it and no matter how hard you try
Monday 17th July 2017 1:14 am
to return to that place, I say not, but only
to find what was once lost
to fix the broken part of me..broken
to make what never was
to pull down the shade screens formed
to blind the penitent to newly ordered crimes
and forever fix this rift between the fixers and I.
Sunday 29th May 2016 1:55 am
Caught in the muddy waters of life
Spiralling in a whirlpool of tenacity
Plucked and discarded
To continue its journey alone
Monday 1st February 2016 9:13 am
I'm a pure example of what happens
When you chase something that's not chasing back
Maybe I didn't get the hint
Maybe I didn't see the picture
That me and you were just a silly fairy tale of mine.
I should have kept my mouth closed
Hold these sweet words behind my tongue
Let the poison sink in
And let the words kill me from within.
But of course I didn't
I had to take a chance
Thursday 22nd October 2015 4:56 am
Had a bad dream last night.
Our eyes met,
from you a half-smile, then
we joshed and jostled for a while,
a chaste but tender intimacy,
dissolved into nothing
by the cold night, and
with the soft snoring beside me
came back the bitter memory
of that final cruel put down.
Tuesday 3rd February 2015 2:38 pm
I look at them
they look at me
through glassy eyes
that never see
we’ve shared this carriage
hopes or fears
I swiftly pass
the guarded gate
and check my watch
in case I’m late
the blank faced guardsman
doesn’t click it
I side ...
Friday 19th July 2013 7:34 pm
The Cause Celebre.
I felt it was fait accompli
that I would make a faux pas.
There would be something I didn’t see
and I would become her bête noire.
But I thought - Oh well – c’est la vie,
I had missed that je ne sais quoi
‘You never talk French to me!”
- her barbed coup de grace.
Sunday 5th May 2013 12:03 pm
The air is chilled,
the night has eyes
that watch the lovers
in the shadows.
in sinful eyes,
that hold the fear
where no-one goes.
A prowling man-trap,
to hold her own
in crowded rooms
that smell of death,
when you're singled out
and on your own.
Black Widow comes
Monday 4th March 2013 5:14 pm
I may not be
your cup of tea
but I am your
bottle of rum --
so ease up that grip:
Stop strangling my neck.
Let My liquid conflagration
scorch your lying condescension
again and again and again.... without fail.
If you but remember to be true
to what lurks deep within you
I will assail your do...
Sunday 13th January 2013 6:57 pm
So...What is it today ?
Will you accept me or reject me?
Nobody truly wants me for the form of existence that I am
I know I am not perfect
I have feelings
How does one live without these things?
Is it wrong for me to want what I cannot have?
I am only human
I am probably so human that I allow my own vulnerabilities transform me into an abomination...
Sunday 20th May 2012 4:11 am
Diamonds strewn across black velvet sky
Starfish scattered along the shore
Star shaped maple leaves flutter and fly
Star flakes of snow in the winter's roar
I miss you so much wherever you are
All I ever wanted was to be your
Photography by Lisa Milligan
Monday 15th August 2011 3:13 pm
Through the corner of my eye
I can see it all falling apart
it's entirely his call
yet it seems it was on the cards
right from the very start
it's like I'm staring through a window that
I can't get in,
her lips touch his, her hand on his skin
I want to beg them to stop
except neither can hear me
the sight chills me to the bone but
as long as he's nea...
Thursday 18th March 2010 8:52 pm