I am so scared
My heart will not stop pounding
I miss you so much
It was wonderful seeing you today
We connect and click in every way
But I am so scared you are going to choose him again and not me
I am so scared we will never be
I am so scared that if I am not with you
Then my life is most certainly through
I am so scared.
Tuesday 13th July 2021 1:46 am
You were my dream
you were my sigh
you were my falling
I never saw a sunspot
but loved an autumn moon
my heart forever broken
by remembering our tune
once we held each other tightly
your scent rubbed off on me
our lips, interlocking
you were my dream
you were my sigh,
a lunatic's gleam
in this wanderer's eye
But now the dream
a baying howl
Sunday 7th March 2021 2:22 am
My gums are bleeding again.
There’s a stack of papers that need attention
But I can’t find my glasses.
My truck is making that funny noise.
I sleep too late
Because no one wakes me.
I don’t write
I feel it’s all been said.
I find I’m repeating myself
No one takes me seriously
Your point’s been made:
I am selfish and fickle,
Sunday 10th May 2020 4:55 am
Michelangelo said the work of art awaited him beneath the slab of marble, merely for him to uncover it. In my own small way I understand that as I write these days. The poem I know is possible waits patiently at the other side across a murky divide and with luck and patience maybe I can reach it, reveal it.
Here is one I wrote about a barbecue years ago in the small town where I lived.
Friday 8th May 2020 11:43 pm
What do you do when the person that once brought you love brings you nothing but pain.
What do you do when the person you gave your heart too took it and threw it away.
What do you do when your heart beats so fast it feels like it is coming out of your chest.
And the love you once had starts to change into tears and hate.
And that person that once brought you comfort and made you feel...
Friday 10th April 2020 6:43 pm
The first time I saw you, your mouth held no words.
I would take you out and watch you marvel at the birds.
Your awkward waddle would bring me smiles.
There was peace in my life holding you as we walked for miles.
The screaming, the crying, the testing,
The laughing, the hugging, the learning.
As I helped you grow, and loved every moment.
Even the ones that involved your excrement.
Saturday 13th April 2019 9:19 pm
for you to literally sit in front of a motherfucker and to have blood on you and to be shaking so bad and tears streaming down your face and snot coming out of your nose and spit running out of your mouth with bruises still on your legs and arms from your last encounter and the person you are sitting in front of still not give a damn and still somehow make an excuse for leaving you as though it's ...
Sunday 11th March 2018 1:51 am
Maybe instead of not being enough,
I was just far too much
Maybe instead of a broken heart,
he left me so I could have a new start
Maybe instead of “being left”,
I was just being pushed one step ahead
Maybe he was the one with problems,
and he walked away to go and solve ‘em
So instead of crying over you,
I will say “Thank you”...
Because what ...
Monday 5th March 2018 9:41 am
where were you all this while
when i lost my smile
when i was lost
when my heart got tossed.
when all the world walked away
left me alone to stay
when i was all alone
they turned my heart into stone.
when i felt my life been drawn out
all i did was scream and shout
with no one to hear me out
it left me short and stout.
everywhere i walked
Monday 26th February 2018 1:13 pm
I think I hung myself in your tears
Yeah, the other day I realised
One noose, one tear drop - same shape.
I choked on the salt of it
eternally thirsty now
When they fell from your eyes
they looked like showers of broken glass
How I wished I could have swallowed that instead
I think that would hurt less
I’ve got 6 bruises, 7 cuts, 3 scars
I’m still counting.
Sunday 11th February 2018 2:21 am
I can’t tell you.
But last night, you entered my chest
for play, some kind of game, like ‘Operation’
and then I couldn’t sleep
I jolted – shivered – jerked – quirked,
now my eyes don’t close
and my body is a pulse,
you tiptoed across my ribcage,
leaving foot prints enlaced by landmines,
you slept on my lungs,
short wired my arteries,
you clipped the circuits of my ...
Wednesday 27th September 2017 2:10 am
Another one from the past, circa 2000. Definatly a bit teenage angst-y, and funnily i can't remeber who this was written about now. They must have been important at the time though!
The feeling in my chest,
Is one I’ve felt before.
All so easy to notice,
Not so easy to ignore.
It tightens up your breathing,
Chills the veins into your heart,
Was that my soul just leaving?
Saturday 15th October 2016 12:24 pm
I’m pretty sure there were tulips in her eyes,
I shouted “Fire! Fire!”,
She took off her sunglasses,
She saw sunrise.
Now I know it, there was a darling rose in her blush,
A honey dew in her stare
But they told me “beware, beware!”
“Have you not been warned of ‘primrose way’?”
Now I felt it, there were dandelions on her lips…
Make a wish, make a wish!
Thursday 4th August 2016 12:32 pm
Someone's sowed pins and needles into her lips.
Thursday 11th February 2016 2:32 am
There, seated at one of the bleachers,
Far distant from me, nineteen meters.
There, a girl before you,
Like a piece of a broken tableau.
For me, it was likely,
A vision, pain with no remedy,
Loud laughs, so clear in view,
Nineteen meters away, such a milieu.
Just heartful days ago,
The pair of your eyes never forego,
What was seen in the sight of me,
Monday 9th November 2015 4:09 pm
Astray that had gone far
Blemishing his /her soul
With Sin's tar,
Puts a broken heart
On the altar,
S/he could enjoy
Win a higher place
In His face
Than a devotee,
In his/her deed,
Who oft mount
A spiritual war
Devil's way to bar.
It is with
A broken heart
Hanged by the right
Of Jesus Christ
Tuesday 15th September 2015 7:51 am
Fragments of my heart began to scatter like narrowed tears,
Foraging the pieces to corrade together, 'till the very near.
I frech as I hear the boastful brontides approach
Agonously attempting to grasp on to my unconvienent hopes.
My eyes are discerpted, bleeding tears of remorse
Time had fleered me from its natural habitat
Balefully, it mocked my optimistic ways
Sunday 5th October 2014 1:37 am
Guided by the faintest of light
Though the world casts its shadows
They kept their dreams alive. People stop and judge them
For what I just don't know
But they keep travelling on
Though they've got no place to go. Love brought them together
Pain has torn them apart
Just two lost souls in the darkness
Joined together through a broken heart. ...
Tuesday 2nd September 2014 8:12 pm